Friday, March 29, 2013

Judged

                   I have been feeling very beat up recently by the fact that yes I have complications. I meet another Type 1 Diabetic and the meetup was not pleasant for me. They too had D for I think around 25 years but also got it I think they told me they were 6. So we were discussing Duchess and that's when the discussion turned to a negative experience for me. The man went on to tell me that If I spent more time managing it I would not be in the situation that I currently am he told me that he has not complications and felt he would not anytime soon. I had mentioned before he said this that I have always had a difficult time managing even as a baby I was having seizures and lows frequently. I have always been lower than could easily sore up very quickly and right back down which we all know increases the odds of complications. I am very sure that my parents and I have always done what we could but maybe it was not enough.

                  I was really astonished that the way he treated me was very rude and condescending in my opinion. I have know diabetics that have had it 10 years and have complications so I know that each person's diabetes is different and our bodies also can handle it very differently as well. I know dealing with complications mentally can be incredibly tough I am always asking myself constantly maybe if I had done that differently I could of changed things.  As I near 33 years of D in May I know I am proud that I am doing everything I can and that should be good enough. I know there will always be people who judge you and generally that is the general public and most of the times I hear about amputations and going blind constantly. I just was not expecting to be judged by another Type 1's who does not have complications. I really thought he would get that you have to walk a mile in my shoes because your diabetes may vary but maybe he assumes all diabetics D is easy as his is to manage. I guess I will never know but this experience really left me feeling alone and judged. Thankfully I went home and thought of the DOC and how all of you would not be judging me but most of all supporting me.

6 comments:

  1. I am sorry that you got a surprise shark bite, from a fellow diabetic even..it hurts more when the icky land shark is a fellow T1 because we expect more understanding but, icky people can also have diabetes, do not let them get you down! I say "diabetes may have been easy for that person..so far..but tomorrow it can change..and wouldn't that be a nice "just desserts"...KARMA...do not let us down!

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  2. I am sure you are right. Honestly I was surprised by the shark bite because most of the people I know have been so wonderful. I am hoping I do not experience that again.

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  3. Ditto what Ann said. Some people just suck.

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  4. Thanks Scott. They defiantly can suck.

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  5. Yeah, I have seen too many differences in stories with people that do and do not have complications. My husband has many complications and it's hard when people assume he doesn't take care of himself because of it. THEY SUCK :)

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  6. It is difficult when they automatically assume things and judge you for it. One day your fine the next day you could have a complication which some people do not seem to understand.

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