Friday, May 29, 2015

Issues That Surprised Me

I know most of the time I don't discuss my Celiac's disease frequently as I should. I know most of the time when I go out to eat I have a stream of worries such as are they using separate utensils when preparing my food, did the workers change there gloves when prepping my food, does the restaurant get how sick I can be from cross contamination. I know most of time I speak with the manager and seem to feel okay most of the time when ordering. I know when I do get exposed to gluten I really feel bad for an extended period of time. I know because I had been dealing with my Celiac's disease for so long it really has become automatic for me to ask the correct questions and hope the answers they are giving me are correct. I know that eating at home is much safer than eating out. I do tend to not eat out frequently to keep myself safe.

I know with the stress I have been experiencing that it also affecting my Celiacs disease as well. I know my body is not handling the stress well but I am really careful of what I have been eating. So I noticed that my stomach has been pissed off at me now for two days and seems to be only getting worse. I know that stress can cause symptoms to what I am experiencing. I know i am hoping that I will get to a place of less stress soon but until then I am doing several things. I am taking Emergen-C which is basically vitamins and high vitamin C. I am also trying to work out and also staying away from people who may be sick. I know you are more likely to get sick when stressed out. So I am hoping to not get sick while dealing with my crazy life right now.

I know the stress is making things difficult for Duchess but also me because I see how unhappy she has been at times this week. I know our normal routine is off with finding out I have 30 days to move. So I know all of this does affect her in a great deal of ways. I know she tends to mirror my emotions most of the time which can be bad. I know I have been busy rushing around trying to figure out what to do next. So I guess until I figure out how to handle everything at least I have a plan.

Thursday, May 28, 2015

When Conflicts Show Up

I know this week has been incredibly difficult week for unrelated to my Diabetes. I know this stress sadly is already showing up in my graphs on my Dexcom . I know I test last night it was 200 so I bolused. After I bolused I thought to myself I wonder if that was right because my Dexcom goes off I am 78. I had just bolused some for some food plus a larger correction. So I had to scramble to eat enough food to cover what I over bolused for. I need to get better about making sure my hands are clean before testing but sometimes life gets in the way. I was so distracted by the other changes in my life I was not thinking through the process the way I should have been.

I know the recent events this week which feels like a bomb went off has reminded me how blessed I really am. I feel blessed I have a great medical team which I am so fortunate to have. I know I have a job and thankfully decent transportation. I have so many wonderful people in my life who care and I also have so many people's blogs who I follow. I feel like no matter what I am going through Diabetes related or not I am truly blessed in so many ways. I know a good friend who understands my Diabetes struggles has really helped me to find solutions that I needed to so quickly. I know the past three years have been amazing and I have learned so much from all of you.

I know I find it incredible that I can share my mistakes, and my success with you all. I know I feel blessed everyday when I wake up with my insulin pump, options to be able to upgrade to the latest technology and in general good access to what I need. I know we all get so busy at times it can be so easy to forge those times where you did not have these options. I know when I went back to college I struggled to pay for these items and I know thankfully I was able to make it through that period of time. I know I managed my Diabetes on my own and did well but I honestly like getting help when I need it as well. So looking back even though I hit some rough spots I have so much to be thankful for. I know during these times I don't know what I would do without Duchess. She has been helping me with the strange blood sugars caused by stress.

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Should I Wait or Test Now ?

I know most of the time Duchess is right on with my alerts and a great deal of the time recently she has been alerting earlier than in the past which is quite helpful. There is times though I know the early alerts are difficult such as during an interview. The interview went well but during it Duchess was alerting most of the time and come back to my desk afterwards and my blood sugar was 103. Sure enough an half and an hour later I was 75. I know it really can make a difference when I am trying to focus If she is alerting constantly. I had to treat her and continue interviewing. I did not want to stop what I was doing and I glanced at my CGM which was reading 118 so I had a feeling it was an early alert. So I risked it and took a chance. Having a low blood sugar during an interview would be less than ideal. I do know I had to make a call.

I know since my interview was internal it was also less structured like the other candidates because I work with them already. I also worry that I did not answer the questions as well because I know them quite well. I was hoping that the one I work with frequently would be at the interview but he was not. So I have no clue if I will have a shot at a second interview. I did try my best but some times having a service dog is incredibly difficult. I have only had her at one interview previously. I know this being the second time it was challenging. I know Duchess probably noticed my energy and that my blood sugar was moving down. Thankfully my blood sugars stayed stable during the process. I know I was nervous and that does affect my blood sugar. I know regardless I am proud of myself for trying to move up in the company. I know there will always be challenges of having a service dog with you during an interview but I will always feel safer having her there with me.

Friday, May 22, 2015

Leave The Pet's at Home

I went to grocery store recently and saw another faker in the store. The dog was a boxer which is not used frequently as a service dog but could be used. The owner was shopping the dog had not vest and I find it interesting how the dog did not have a vest when I find it really makes things easier. I watched the dog carefully as I was reaching for some hummus. The dog then puts a block of cheese in its mouth. The owner seems oblivious that her so called service dog was breaking all rules. A service dog should not be trying to eat the food off the floor or in the store in general. The dog seemed to listen to basic commands pretty well but I was really disappointed that someone thought they could bring their pet into the store and it would be fine. It makes Duchess look bad when your dog puts cheese in its mouth when we are in the store. Knowing my luck the person would probably try to blame Duchess for her dogs wrong doing.

I really wish people would just leave your pets at home. Even though they may be well behaved they have not been trained how to handle situations such as a grocery store or a mall for example. Duchess had plenty of training and handles those situations well. I just wish that people understood why taking your dog to the store jeopardizes my rights to have my service dog with me in the future. I depend upon Duchess more than I like to admit but it works for me. I just wish people who had pets could leave them at home where they are most comfortable and happy. There is not need for them to be everywhere with you I know from experience it is not all that much fun and I know taking Duchess everywhere requires a great deal of responsibility and concerns for her safety as well. I know most pet's are not able to handle the stress of handling places like a grocery store when they are only used to their home.

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

When Things Get in the Way

I have been struggling with some events that happened at work recently. I decided to apply for a position my coworker had. She just left for another job and so they are going to be looking for a replacement. I know I trained my coworker on a great deal of things she did in her job daily. When I was under different management previously they did not want us to know each others job. I know this has not helped when I am applying for her job but the interesting part is that most of things I have taught her were used as part of the job she had. So I applied the director supported me applying my manager thought I should not apply. I think it relates back to some of the seizures and bad lows at work. I know that will always play a part in me not being able to move up in my job to an extent.

The interesting part is that it would actually be cheaper for them to train me on the two things I am not as familiar with than to train someone new to the University. So my stress levels have been climbing. I know I had told the director of my section that I was applying so i felt obligated even though my manager did not support my decision to apply. So out of principal I applied because I said I was going to. I know I have worked the day after I got out of the hospital for a seizure in the past and through Sunday that week. I am really surprised now that they doubt my ability to do the job efficiently. I know my manager told me that other positions will be available in the future I could apply for. I have hear this my whole career and nothing has ever come from these so called open positions that could open up in the future.

I know right now we are going to be at full capacity and I don't see them adding more positions so at this point there is no where for me to go except to look at other potions in the University. The issue with that is having Duchess at work has been so difficult. Changing to a new position is overwhelming because I need to educate them but also deal with more complaints or issues that could arise. I know I want more opportunities but at times just even thinking about it is overwhelming. I am thinking it might be time to leave for other opportunities because I fear I will not have any opportunities to advance. I know I do my best to manage my Diabetes but it has never been easy. So at this point I know moving on seems like the only way I may be able to advance.

Safety for our Furry Friends


                   



I recently was given the opportunity to try a new product Puppy Treads from Handi-Ramp. This product you can use on steps, floors and tiles. Duchess is normally going about a hundred miles an hour out the dog door but coming back into the house she slides across the floor and actually hits the couch. Since she had had issues with her legs from injuries I am always trying to keep her safe. I put the product at the door coming back in the house and Duchess is no longer sliding across the floor like she was. Even when wet she still not sliding across the floor and she had not hit the couch. I know I have moved the couch back before but when it was wet outside Duchess would still run into the couch. So this product has worked really well.  I noticed that I am not slipping on the product barefooted or in socks. So it does feel safer than before when Duchess would come rushing into the house.


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I know I like to keep Duchess safe from as much as possible. Duchess can be very accident prone at times so this product has worked really well in my home. I know the stickers are easy to apply and don't leave a residue when being removed . I have noticed that the product is wearing well and I have not seen any damage from Duchess running in and out the dog door. She is fairly rough on this area of the house. I know the product comes in Clear, Black and Grey. I know I used the clear and it also is easily cleaned as well. My dog door is in the kitchen area so I need to be able to wipe it down with a mop and it has worked really well for what I needed.I know this product would be very useful on hardwood floors and stairs. I have slide down hardwood stairs at one time. So keep our furry friends safe is always a concern. I know Duchess tends to injure her legs so easily if I had stairs I would have these on my stairs personally.





This company sells a great deal of products from dog ramp, dog treads, and other safety products. The installation process is shown above and very simple. I had no sticky residue on my hands which was so nice. I need to clarify I did receive a free sample and was not paid to blog about the items. the opinions are mine and no the companies.

I would not recommend a product unless I found it useful. I know I spend so much of my time keeping Duchess safe. She will 7 in July so as she is aging I am trying to make sure she is safe and she is my best friend. I think this is good for any dog. I know they can tear ligaments and other leg injuries quite easily and I know Duchess has had these issues. So taking the time to purchase a product like this could be beneficial.


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Tuesday, May 19, 2015

When You Know The Stress is Coming

I know at times it so easy to forget how much Duchess is paying attention. I know this week and the next couple of months will be incredibly stressful for me personally. At work again a coworker has transferred to another part of the University so that means that I am the only person who actually process work and answers emails for the department. So know I am on my own with very little help from the other people who work in the department. So my stress level has risen substantially the last couple of days. I know Duchess tends to pick up on my stress and stays right next to me all day. I know last night when I was at the gym she could not seem to get close enough at times to her liking. She has really gotten even better at alerting me at the gym and in general does not miss lows while I am working out which is incredibly wonderful for me.

I am not sure how I well I will handle the constant stress but thankfully working out does help. I am not happy that I am the only person who responds for the department. So technically I am the only person for the whole University which is really way too much for one person. I still have my other jobs as well so I am not sure how well I will be able to keep up with all the work and then people will be out on vacation as well. I know there will be no coverage for me while I am gone on vacation which means I will be at least a week behind on work when I return from my vacation which is less than ideal. I know Duchess and me will really need to work together as a team to keep me safe. I know I am trying my best to keep my stress down but it is a great deal of pressure when you have not one person working to help with all the work that will be piling up.

I know me continually working with Duchess on our bond and other aspects will now be vital to my own personal safety. I also know that my workouts are now even more important to keeping the lows at bay. I know I am going to do my best which is all I can do at this point.

Monday, May 18, 2015

When Things Take A Turn For the Worse

I know during blog week last week. I noticed some things that are leaving me uneasy. I know I have been working out regularly at the gym now for a year. I have been doing great keeping my eating disorder in check or at least I thought so. I know when my eating disorder starts up I know I start to think about how I should be working out today. I should not have a cheat day and I should avoid all my favorites because those extra pounds will really difficult to work off. I know I have lost quite a bit of weight in the past two months. I know I was trying to lose some weight for sky diving but I am taking it to a whole new level. I know I have lost weight but I have not idea how much I weight because that is one of the biggest triggers is knowing my weight. So when I get weighed at appointments I look away so I don't know. I know I get so obsessed with numbers at times it is really best for me to not know. I can tell if I am gaining weight by my clothes.

So now I am trying my best to fight off the thoughts in my head about I should be working out 7 days a week and for several hours a day. It is incredibly easy for me to fall back into my pattern of thinking and then into action. I know for example this weekend I was thinking about how I didn't need to have my cheat day and how much more I would lose if I skipped it this week. I know I am not to where I stop eating as much but I will head there if I can't get things under control quickly. I have went several years with no real issues but I am back into dangerous territory.

I know I might need to get help this time If I am unable to get my thought process back to normal. I know when I stated to lose a little weight I was not planning to lose the amount I have so far. I do feel fine in some ways right now but I know I need to watch my though process and my exercise. Normally I start to exercise excessively and then I start to eat less and less each day. In fact most of the time I eat only enough to make it through working out and not much more. I might need help if I continue forward in this direction. I know it wont hurt to get help but I know I want to teach myself how to get myself back on track so I can keep myself healthy.