Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Why Duchess Has Not Been Feeling Well

I know recently I have noticed some issues with Duchess alerting from time to time since our move. I thought she just needed some time so I made a call to the trainer yesterday. She told me several things to check out if she has allergies she might be stuffed up and can't smell things like she normally would or she could be in pain from an injury or illness. She is very good alerter so I was worried sick trying to figure it out. I know she recommended I start with some Zyrtec so I did last night. I know my vet said she could have allergy medicine when needed. So I thought I would give it a try. Sure enough she is a different dog today she is back to her energetic self and she could smell my blood sugar without being on top of me most of the time. She seems to be back to her normal self I am getting steady alerts and quite early. So to say I am relived is an understatement. I know there is so many things that can affect if your dog will continually alert and everything the trainer said could be true.

I know I do my best to take Duchess to the vet and I do have pet insurance to be safe. I need a plan to help make things more affordable if something did happen and Duchess insurance has really helped. So far nothing has happened but if something does it feels good to have a good plan in place. I know you never know if your dog will need surgery for an injury or physical therapy for an injury. I know I do plan on seeing how I can make things as easy for both Duchess and I because proper health care for a service dog is essential. So I am glad that I have my plan but also thankful that it turned out to be something so simple. I never thought about when you move that the allergens they may be exposed to could be different as well. So I know I am trying to make sure I give her allergy medicine nightly to avoid her being drowsy when she is working. I know even with having Duchess 5 years I am still constantly learning and still making mistakes. I know I feel so much better to know that Duchess is back to her old self again.

Monday, July 27, 2015

Some Times Slowing Down is Good

I know this past weekend had quite a few surprises that came up. I know Duchess is always so ready to work and very energetic but this past weekend she was not. So we ended up reducing her work time and I let her sleep and the next day we did a very light duty again and she slept more as well. Today she seems to be back to her normal self which is wonderful. I am thinking she was sick which does happen. I know I have other pets in the past get sick and so her getting sick was no surprise. I normally am very busy on the weekends but it was nice for me as well to stop and enjoy some time doing things I do enjoy as well. I have been so busy getting everything ready for the move that I have not been able to have as much fun. I know I need to get together with my friends before I move and got to some of my favorite places. I know I feel really great with how much I have accomplished so far. I am feeling like I am as ready as I will be for the move.

So now I am onto getting job applications submitted before I leave. I know I am much more comfortable with having a job before I move but in this case I knew I would have time to apply before I was leaving and that should help. I also for the first time in my life purchased a professionally done resume and hoping that will help make the job hunt a little easier. I know I am excited about all the changes. I know Duchess getting sick happens but I am trying to manage to only do a limited number of things in one weekend so I don't cause issues for both of us. I know I had a not so great weekend of lows that were sticking around for hours which is not fun. Thankfully I was eventually able to get them back up to normal. I did lower the basal several time and I am finally waking up a little higher which is great. So I am making progress but very slowly. 

Friday, July 24, 2015

Duchess and Continuing Changes

I know with all the recent changes Duchess seems to be changing as well. I have noticed that she is not sure of what is really going on so her alerting patterns have changed. She used to remind me if I forgot to give her a treat for an alert when I am low this does happen even though I try my best to not let this happen. I know I have been trying to continue her scent training but she seems to be uninterested with it all these days which worries me to an extent. I also know that I don't know what to expect from all the changes as well. So I am sure that this experience has been really difficult for Duchess. I know I am doing my best to get her back to some sore of routine but it does not help that half my stuff is packed up and is in boxes to be ready for the big move. So I know this living in limbo has changed things for Duchess. Keep in mind she is not missing alerts she is just a little more resistant to doing her normal scent training. I know the most important thing is that she is alerting.

I know my goal once we get to California is to get a routine for Duchess because she does well when she knows what to expect. I know she loves the location we are going to be living so she will feel at home pretty quickly and I am planning on setting up her dog cot and dog toys in an area she can play in. I want to make sure I do the best job of getting her back to the normal as much as possible but this will also be a great time to switch some things up and make her life easier as well. The nice part of the move is that she will have more area to play in than she currently does at my friends place and she will have a back yard to play in as well.

So it will some what like she is used to. I know she tends to be so used things they way they used to be. I know all this will take some time but at least she is alerting well and she also has tended to be ever more loving during all these changes. I know she is confused by all the boxes being around and we only have one more month of boxes in August then we will be on our way to California.  I know I have to say having a Diabetic alert dog has never been easy especially during changes like I am experiencing now.  I know I am learning as well through this process so I am always just trying to make the best decisions I can for Duchess and hoping that I don't make any mistakes along the way. The relationship with a DAD is very a complicated one and I know each dog is different.

Thursday, July 23, 2015

When The Beeping is Too Much

I know at times my devices drive me crazy. I get tired of hearing the beeping or the alerts. I get tired of the Dexcom being wrong most of the time but I am really just tired of dealing the fact that I live my life between the lines. I know these goals do help me to keep my Diabetes in check and do help me keep my Alc where I like it to be but at times it can be really overwhelming dealing with it all the time. I know I have been very dependent on my Dexcom and I am still am even with the increased exercise. I also know that I do benefit from the device but I also feel like I have a screaming two year that I take everywhere with me. Even to meeting, concerts etc. and it tends to go off at the worst moments. I know I love having the graphs and the information I need to make changes.

I know I will always have a love hate relationship with my Dexcom because it shows me where I messed up or where I did things well. I know it provides the Dr. and I very important information. I know at times I tend to get rather irritated with things and I know with my up coming Endocrinologist appointment my irritation with my device tends to grow.  So I am hoping once I do get to my appointment I will find peace again with my Dexcom. I know having to constantly look at a device is complicated when I am busy working and sometimes I don't look at it very often and that's when things tend to sneak up on me. I know like when I am skydiving I need to check on it frequently but at times just keeping up with the Diabetes stuff plus getting ready to move can be a great deal to deal with.

I know I don't feel burned out just really wanting to be able to enjoy my time while I am here in Austin. I guess we all have out times of just pure annoyance but I also know I am lucky to have the equipment I need and the flexibility to use them as I need. I know I feel fortunate to have the option to deal with my Diabetes. I know I am sure I will be some what annoyed by all machines I have but I also know I am taking better care of myself by using them even though the drive me crazy.

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Back to Low Pattern

I know at times my blood sugar will cooperate but I know recently even with all the changes to come. I am finding that I am back into a low pattern again even with constant basal changes I can't seem to keep up with the changes. I am lowering my dosages as fast as possible but at times finding the right dosage without going high over night can be challenging. I know I am reducing my basal at a very quick rate but I also know that my recent weight loss some planned and other was not planned. So I am sure I will be needing less and have been working out probably longer than I need to. I know this week I am working out a little shorter period of time and seeing how I do in the hopes that will help to avoid lows as much.

I also know I am doing more to get ready for my move as well and it can be difficult to plan for everything possible but all I can do is give it my best try. I know I have gotten so much done I won't have much left to do except possibly this next weekend which is great. I am always wanting to keep things simple as possible with this move and the next adventures to come but each time changes come most of the time I don't have a great pattern or solution except to test until I get it right. So I am working on it looking at graphs blood sugars and other information I do have. I know reviewing has helped quite a bit but at times it can just be overwhelming. I know keeping up with the changes right now feels like a full time job not including my real full time job. I am hoping to find some balance soon.

Monday, July 20, 2015

Blood Sugar and Up Coming Appointment

It seems like at times I do really well with my blood sugars and other times not so much. I know the past couple of months have been good but when I stop my regular exercise routine and then start again it usually equals some bad lows. I know I have had my share recently. I also know I am working hard to get my blood sugars to a safer range than I have been having. I know I have had several in the 30 range blood sugars even with adjustments. I also know then I have had some big bounces upwards after the fact because I was treating and it took quite a while to go back up. I know in the future when they have low dose glucagon shot I know I will be using them because at times it would be nice to not stay low for several hours and then feel not so great when I start to soar upwards again.

I know for me the worst part is that I have my blood draw on Saturday for my Endocrinologist visit on the 31st. I know my blood sugar have been higher because I was running higher during my vacation which I really did not put as much effort into watching as I normally would do. It was a really nice to just have some time where I was not checking my Dexcom every five minutes. Event though it was not the best decision it was nice in some ways. I never really take a vacation from it but even not obessessing about it as often was really nice. I have a feeling though that the lows and highs will balance themselves out. I am not forcing a big change but I am always so worried. I am also incredibly sad to say goodbye to my Favorite Endocrinologist I have ever had and my favorite PA who have made my life better and solved some really complicated issues. Every time I think back they always squeezed me in and let me send in Dexcom info in between appointments because they care about me as the patient. It was such a wonderful experience.

I know I have been so blessed to have found these Dr.'s who have made my life better and provided me the opportunity to encourage me to continue to do things I do love. I am sad to be leaving Austin in September but also incredibly excited for all the new opportunities to come. I know being unable to move up or have new opportunities has really affected my in some many ways so this opportunity to start again will be incredible. I don't think I have ever said I will miss two Dr.'s but I will and that really says a great deal about who they are as physician's. The staff is also incredible as well I really hit the lottery with this group and I am hoping I can find this in California as well. I know I would not handle a Dr. saying I am a bad patient or uncompliant. I will fire them if necessary but hoping I can just get a Dr. who was understanding as this group was because at the end of the day living my life according to my own terms is very important to me as the patient.  

Thursday, July 16, 2015

Issues I am Creating and Big Changes Coming in My life

I know recently I have been facing one big challenge which is actually myself. I am in a not so great place when it comes to dealing with what I consider to be a high blood sugar. I know I have never dealt with high blood sugars because my physicians made me feel like I was a bad person because I was high. So when I went on vacation I was really bad about pre-bolusing as usual and it ended up causing several highs which made me feel really crummy. So now I am thankfully back to my normal routine including going to the gym and eating what I normally do. I have a Dr. appointment at the end of this month and with the high blood sugars so close to my blood draw I am worried about a higher A1c but it is normally in great range but I know I tend to get upset if I even feel like it will not be what I am used to.

So now I feel like I am back to where I started at the beginning of the year with the same issue and feeling completely deflated by it all. I know normally I am able to take on challenges like this and seem to be able to put things in a different perspective but this one is incredibly challenging. I have been tabling the feelings I feel when I get blood sugars I don't like I do know things happen we under bolus or we over bolus and we have a bad infusion set. I know my expectations for my Diabetes at time is highly unrealistic and this leaves me with a bigger burden of feeling like I am failing myself. I also can make my self feel burned out if I keep up this mind set. I know I need to work on this but I am so distracted by some really exciting changes coming my way.

I am making major changes in my life in this coming September. I am moving to Sonoma California to be with my long term boyfriend John after 3 1/2 years of being together. So I am looking forward to this change. Since I never unpacked my things I am now having to reduce what I have further to prepare for my move from Texas to California here shortly. So  now I am trying to get everything ready for my move and also make sure I have everything ready for my move and also prepare for my new life in California. I am so distracted by all these wonderful things and so I know I need to deal with this as well. I know I have so much going on at times it can be a little much. I know at the beginning of September my blog post will be lessened because of my move and all the changes in my life I will try and get back to my normal blogging as soon as possible. I am looking at reducing the amount of blogs because I am trying to get my life to a more manageable place.

Keep in mind I am in a place right now I am evaluating my life which will also include my blog as well. I do plan to keep on blogging but how much I am not sure as of yet. I will keep you all updated as much as I can during this process.

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

Sky Diving Jump Three

I know my third jump while on vacation was the most exciting. I was wearing a device called Altimeter which helps you to know how far you are at that moment. Normally you want to pull around 6-5 to give yourself enough time to land safely. I was using it to help me become aware of where I am in the process of the sky dive. I know when you solo sky dive you need to know when to pull the parachute and that is done by being altitude awareness. I know I was teaching my self every couple of seconds to turn my wrist so I could see where I was altitude wise as I was jumping. The teacher mike is an AFF instructor so we practiced normal things that are in the actual tests. I practiced pulling the chute and I also practiced looking at him and letting him know what I was going to do by saying it loudly and then doing it. That will help you to remember how to do it and also get you think to do it with little thought.


I know I was also able to track where I needed to land by looking for very specific landmarks that are close to the landing area. I know he pointed out a gas plant and other landmarks near by so I could see how I need to start to get myself in certain area as I am getting close to landing. We also practiced being able to land the parachute which I will learn how to do during my AFF training but pulling down on the toggles is not very easy for two people but I was still able to practice doing so. So I learned so much from what I was taught and I just so excited each time I get to do more. I know I have so much still to learn but thankfully most people are willing to share what they have learned from their experiences. I know when I was hanging out at Lodi near Stockton California I was able to meet so many experienced jumpers as well as newbies like me. I know I am proud I have not let my Diabetes stop me from pursuing things I love to do.