Thursday, December 10, 2015

Interesting First Week

Things at my new work have been going great so far but I can already see some interesting challenges ahead. I am brand new and a person is already leaving the department. I have a feeling it was related to issues with another department and nothing internal. Right now the University is shuffling departments around internally so I have a feeling this person leaving was related to that recent changes. I know my department has various new team members which is great for me because they have done so much for me so far. I know this time I got asked for what office supplies I wanted and they actually arrived today at my office. It was really nice not to have to wait six months on the job before being asked what I needed. I am not sure what the other person leaving will impact me but I have a feeling because I have experience in the area this person had that could mean that I would get a promotion but honestly I am really liking the section I am in right now.

The best parts of my new job is that I work in a house and my desk is right by the back door which has access to the back yard. So it makes it ideal when having to take Duchess out. I know I also work right next to the kitchen which is ideal for storing extra food and the fridge is right there. So I can store my extra supplies and juice boxes. I know I previously at my old job had to request a fridge but this time I don't need to ask for any accommodation because the house is really ideal for Duchess. Honestly Duchess loves that at lunch I can take her outside and play in the yard. Also last Friday my coworker and I played soccer with Duchess and she was incredibly happy. She really loved her new work location but also seems to love how homey the house is. I know I can take my lunch break in the living room and also relax for an hour. My boss has a policy that no lunch break is skipped. So we have to have lunches which equal happier staff. So I also have to say that my boss is incredible.

She is familiar with service dog do's and don't s.  She also has been great in helping take on some issues that have come up. I know my position helps three other sections out in doing tasks but they have been sending tasks without asking my boss first so that she can review it. She wants to give me time to adjust and also finish all my training as well. She also is working on sending out a message to all staff about not petting service dogs etc. to educate everyone. Which takes the stress off me which is very helpful. I know she has been great and I know I am really starting to see peoples true colors after being there over a week. I know who I can trust and who I can't so far. I know I am learning so much and I feel like my supervisor works very hard to make sure I am not taken advantage of which I really appreciate. I know I am learning so much and I feel that this job will be what I needed. I knew I wanted to do something else and it really is very different. I know my skills in this position could open more doors for me personally. I know I feel very comfortable with my one coworker and boss.

I know I am looking forward to see what happens next. I am really enjoying the fact that my job in general is less stressful than my previous positions. Hoping that will help me to have a happy and healthier life. I know my move to California was for several reasons but I also know how much my work was deterioration my health so making changes that seem to have made me very happy so far. I am hoping for many more great things. I know I am blessed to have the ability to make the changes I needed in my life. I know my boyfriend John is so happy that I moved and I know I feel the same. Life is really great because I feel like I am not stuck in a rut. I know my diabetes has been really starting to smooth out in general. So I am hoping I can keep it that way.

Interesting First Week

Things at my new work have been going great so far but I can already see some interesting challenges ahead. I am brand new and a person is already leaving the department. I have a feeling it was related to issues with another department and nothing internal. Right now the University is shuffling departments around internally so I have a feeling this person leaving was related to that recent changes. I know my department has various new team members which is great for me because they have done so much for me so far. I know this time I got asked for what office supplies I wanted and they actually arrived today at my office. It was really nice not to have to wait six months on the job before being asked what I needed. I am not sure what the other person leaving will impact me but I have a feeling because I have experience in the area this person had that could mean that I would get a promotion but honestly I am really liking the section I am in right now.

The best parts of my new job is that I work in a house and my desk is right by the back door which has access to the back yard. So it makes it ideal when having to take Duchess out. I know I also work right next to the kitchen which is ideal for storing extra food and the fridge is right there. So I can store my extra supplies and juice boxes. I know I previously at my old job had to request a fridge but this time I don't need to ask for any accommodation because the house is really ideal for Duchess. Honestly Duchess loves that at lunch I can take her outside and play in the yard. Also last Friday my coworker and I played soccer with Duchess and she was incredibly happy. She really loved her new work location but also seems to love how homey the house is. I know I can take my lunch break in the living room and also relax for an hour. My boss has a policy that no lunch break is skipped. So we have to have lunches which equal happier staff. So I also have to say that my boss is incredible.

She is familiar with service dog do's and don't s.  She also has been great in helping take on some issues that have come up. I know my position helps three other sections out in doing tasks but they have been sending tasks without asking my boss first so that she can review it. She wants to give me time to adjust and also finish all my training as well. She also is working on sending out a message to all staff about not petting service dogs etc. to educate everyone. Which takes the stress off me which is very helpful. I know she has been great and I know I am really starting to see peoples true colors after being there over a week. I know who I can trust and who I can't so far. I know I am learning so much and I feel like my supervisor works very hard to make sure I am not taken advantage of which I really appreciate. I know I am learning so much and I feel that this job will be what I needed. I knew I wanted to do something else and it really is very different. I know my skills in this position could open more doors for me personally. I know I feel very comfortable with my one coworker and boss.

I know I am looking forward to see what happens next. I am really enjoying the fact that my job in general is less stressful than my previous positions. Hoping that will help me to have a happy and healthier life. I know my move to California was for several reasons but I also know how much my work was deterioration my health so making changes that seem to have made me very happy so far. I am hoping for many more great things. I know I am blessed to have the ability to make the changes I needed in my life. I know my boyfriend John is so happy that I moved and I know I feel the same. Life is really great because I feel like I am not stuck in a rut. I know my diabetes has been really starting to smooth out in general. So I am hoping I can keep it that way.

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

First Day

I am really looking forward to my first day at my new job. I am thrilled to be able to be working again. I know it has so hard to not be working and just applying for jobs for quite a while. It has been a very rough road as far as job hunting but I am pleased in the end that I got the job that I wanted initially when I applied back in September. I know I will have so much to learn but the group of people I meet all seems so wonderful and helpful. I know the person who did the job previously and was promoted will be working right next to me so I can easily ask questions which will make the job easier in that way. I know after the one company I was going to do the temp to permanent position made me really weary of things but I know I need to start fresh. So I am going to go to work with an open mind and hopeful that things will be wonderful in my new position.

I am excited in some ways because I can use lessons learned from my previous job to help avoid some pitfalls of having Duchess at work. I am most of all hoping that people give me a chance to prove that I can do the job and that I am able to do anything everyone else is able to. I know it would seem like that would be a given but I have found that is not always the case but I am very optimistic things will be good. I know I was pleased that the University I will be working for handled the disability requests quite well so I am hopeful. I know each place is different and I know a fresh start is really what I need. I guess I will know tomorrow and more this week how things will go. I am hoping they are open minded and understand I am just as capable as any other person. My blood sugars have been better past couple of weeks and so I am hoping with a slight temporary basal rate during the first couple of weeks will allow me to have less lows and hopefully be able to learn all the things I need to learn. The good part is that I know I will be getting a week paid time off at Christmas similar to what I got at my last job. So I will get some down time right after starting which is really nice.

I know I am hoping Duchess is ready for all the change. She really handled the temp assignments I did at a hospice organization in October and November. I know she will love meeting all the new people and most of all I think she will be happier to be back to work as I am. Except I honestly think she loves staying home because she can run around the house but I know she will enjoy in some ways getting back to our routine of sorts. I know I am excited and a little nervous even though I know I will be fine.

Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Follow Up on Job Offers

It has been an interesting job hunt to say the least. I did finally finish getting all the required documents for my disability accommodations which are basically bringing Duchess to work turned into human resources today which was a relief. I know I won't be able to start my job until all the paper work was submitted in a timely manner. I did have issues getting my old Dr.'s office to sign the paper work though so it has been a great deal of hoops to jump through to get to this point today. I did finally hear back from the other job offer I had accepted on Friday afternoon. They sent me an email saying to start on a set date and time but they had a little note at the bottom. The position was originally for a temporary to permanent position. I would have been temporary for around three months. I know the email stated the clients had decided to hire their own Administrative Assistant internally. The position would now only be a temporary position until they found an acceptable person for the job.

I know I am still really angry that people the minute they hear I have a service dog the run. I know my new position at a state job was very accepting of the law and just had me fill out the proper paper work. They said I would need to meet with them when I start to discuss accommodations but other than that I am all set for the my first day on the job. It is insulting because I have a great deal of success as an administrative assistant or associate positions. I know I even took tests for the temp agency and did really well but funny how when you need accommodations they want nothing to do with you and want to back out of the job offer if they could legally get away with it. I did rather enjoy emailing them temp agency back on Friday saying that I had accepted a full time job offer with another company. I know this temporary agency should have been more careful. They were trying to change the position they offered after the original offer was agreed upon. I am sure they sought legal advice on how to handle this so the client did not have to have me as an employee. I know I was over joyed to turn down the job offer once they started to change the offer around.

I know I have a great deal of service dog teams that do not work and I know why. It is was really a slap in the face how so person can disregard years of experience because you have a disability and treat you like you have no value. I know my job at the University of Texas was never easy but I always got the job done. So I find it very hard to deal with how belittled I felt after this experience. I know I am glad I found a place that is really happy to welcome me to the team with my disability. I am hoping I see more of that in the future but I know after this experience I plan on staying with my new University for many years to come because having a service dog and going through this process again would be incredibly difficult to handle. I know I am extremely happy with my decision to move but I forgot how hard it would be to handle the disability related paper work, forms and questions.

I know I would not have handled all the stress or difficulties I faced this time without John. He really has been a great helping me to watch Duchess while I interviewed and helping me practice for interviews as well. I know I did not always handle my stress as well as I would have liked but thankfully I am done with that part of the process. I know with all the extra steps I have to handle after accepting a job offer it feels like a great deal of work. Normally they want this paper work same day or next day at latest. So it is a great deal of time talking to nurses and scrambling to get things faxed to my new employer. I know why a great deal of service dog teams don't work and most of the reason I am finding is not the disabled person but rather the employers in a great deal of cases. It makes me incredibly sad to be even saying that. I was hopeful that my experience would have been positive instead of such a negative experience. I know we still have a great deal of a ways to go when it comes to dealing with disabilities in the workplace.

Friday, November 20, 2015

Interesting Job Hunt and the Leassons Learned

Things have been such a whirl wind and I have not blogged as I would have liked. I have been so busy working on getting a job it was just too much to keep up with these days. I normally love to blog during November but this year it just didn't happen. I did get a job offer and I was supposed to start the job today but I never heard back from the staffing company after I submitted a Dr.'s note about my need for an accommodation at work so I can bring Duchess with me. I know the federal laws but the request by the company was not very nice. I know our email exchanged she expected me to have a Dr.'s note ready once I told her about my need to have Duchess. I know in Texas my job requested me to release some medical records to the Disability department. I signed the paper work so the school could get the records I stared a day later. I know the process was easy. Sadly since I had never been asked for a Dr.'s note I was not prepared but thankfully my Dr.'s office was able to get one written the day I called then I had them fax it to the company. I heard back from the staffing agency for the temporary to permanent position I was hired for that they were waiting to hear back from the company.  I heard nothing from them today so I assume they are trying to get out of trying to hire me at this point is my assumption.

I know during all of this time I was called back for a second interview at a job I really wanted. I found out today and accepted the position at a local University in the area. I know because the position is a state job I won't really have any issues being able to take Duchess with me to work. So I am relieved that I don't have to go through the situation I was with the other job I accepted a position with. I am waiting to see if I ever hear back from them or what their response will be. I am curious to find out what they will say next. I know after my current job hunting experience I am thinking the disability laws leave a great deal to be desired. I know the only way I can compete is to not disclose my disability because of the assumptions people make. It is sad reality in this country how bad they treat the disable who are trying to be productive citizens who just want to work.

I know once I tell someone about my disability they have complete meltdowns most of the time and then they get angry if you don't know in advance what documentation they will want. I can see why a great deal of people in this country with disabilities don't work because they make you jump through so many hoops to just be able to start a job. I am glad they improved the disability laws several years back but there is so many loop holes that make it easy to discriminate against a disable individual. I know I have just as much to offer as any healthy person. I just wish they would not make such harsh judgements about me before they even see my work. I know I do tend to stay in jobs longer now because of the difficulty with getting new jobs. I am really hoping that my new department will still welcome me with the same enthusiasm as any other employee after all I am still human. I know my disability does not deter my abilities just wish more people understood that.

Friday, October 30, 2015

Increased Alerting After the Move

I know with all the recent changes in Duchess's life I was really worried that her alerting would be affected by all these changes. I really happy to say that Duchess is actually alerting even better now than she was before the move.  Duchess has always been great at alerting but now she seems much happier about life in general. I know things have been incredibly busy with the move, job hunting and just unpacking. I know I was also worried that with having two diabetics around might be tough for her but she seems to take it all in stride. I know having two of us around does not seem to bother her at all. I know she does tend to alert to John when my blood sugars are off for good reason I am sure. I know most of the time if she does alert I do test and take care of it but I also know there was times when I am too far gone to respond to her alerts. I am thankful that she loves her new home and loves our new life. She seems generally more relaxed and happy now.

                                                        


I know Duchess has some separation anxiety which I am trying to work on but when I am going to interviews she freaks out. I know John is with her but she generally is so worried about me but I do run my blood sugars higher during interviews to avoid the CGM alarming and also so I can just concentrate on getting the job instead of worrying if I am going to go low.  I know it has been hard on Duchess waiting for me while I am in interviews but it does seem to help her. I know we have found that if John takes here vest off while I am gone she calms down and relaxes. Once I get back in the car we put her vest back on and she is back to work again. I know Duchess has some interesting needs when I am away but at least it seems to help lessen her separation anxiety. Some days she does wonderful when I am gone to get the mail or things that are close to the house. So at least I am making progress in dealing with the separation anxiety.

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

Last Couple of Weeks

I have to say since I had my seizure after the incident with the Verio IQ not working properly I have been battling some tough lows and other seizures. I know I have been so caught up in getting settled applying for jobs. It has been difficult getting back into writing my blog. I know a recent seizure John had to deal with again. I know he never gets made at me for it but I am finding for me it has been incredibly difficult. I know the reason why is the guilt I feel for having so many lows since August when he first arrived in Austin. I know some of the lows were because of my meter but I still feel incredibly responsible for these incidents. I know I feel at times the guilt is eating me alive. I know he loves me and we would not be together if we didn't care for each other. I just didn't expect to feel this overwhelming guilt around with me. I know in the past when I was on vacation and this happened it was not the same in some ways.

I know I lucky to have him in my life and I am very thankful. I know after my second recent seizure and bad low. I told John that I wish this wasn't my life which is so unlike me but I actually think I really meant it at that moment. I feel like I am a burden to him and not that he feels that way but it has to be a lot to deal with glucagon shots and scary seizures. I know he seems to take it all in stride because he is also a Diabetic too. I know I have helped him during lows too but it just feel so different because his are so rare. I know I was told by my old coworker that I lived with for a short period time that she really had no idea how scary my life is and how difficult it must be. I know I do my best but at times like these I really struggle with what I can do with the guilt of these events even if they weren't preventable. I know as I am writing this I am trying to not cry because I feel so overwhelmed by it all. I know Duchess has really helped in alerting John to these events but I still feel like that is not enough.

I know now were are discussing getting the latest Dexcom G5 because John can monitor my blood sugars while he is at work when I am at home. That would be helpful but I know I am never good about sharing my Dexcom graphs with my family but I have shown them to him in the past. I know now he wakes me up in the middle of the night he hears my Dexcom go off and I am hearing his Dexcom as well at night. I know this data sharing is something I need to be open to because it does mean that he could help if I needed it. So it does take some getting used to because I have cared for my Diabetes for so many years independently from others. I know when I am high I get cranky and when I am low I get tired of hearing about it. So having him contact me when I am low would take some adjustment on my part to stay positive with him trying to be helpful. I am pretty sure once I get back to working again that will be one of the first things I purchase. I know I need to do as much as possible to keep me safe regardless of how I feel about sharing the data.

Sunday, October 25, 2015

A New Experience that Taught me so Much

I am still job hunting. I ended up taking a temporary position for the first time in my life because honestly I was not handling not working very well. I am so used to this high paced and hundred a mile an hour pace. I also know that this process has been strange for Duchess as well because we are home more often than usual because I am spending so much time applying for jobs. I  have to say I was never planning of using a temporary agency but it actually turned out okay. Once I got the job assignment I then told them about Duchess. The temp agency was not happy to say the least but the place I was assigned to loved Duchess. It was an incredible assignment which made me realize that yes my work experience really could be pleasant compared to my old job. I know it gave me hope that I could possibly find a good employer who would be supportive of having Duchess.

I learned so much from this experience so now I know more what I am looking for in a job. I know my experience at my last job was not great but I also know what I would do differently next time if it got to that point. I am hoping to find an employer who values me more as an employee but also values how productive and how much I add to the work place. I know I am looking to make my life better in every way possible. Finding the right work place for both of us would be ideal. I am finding that back in 2011 I needed a job and it was the first one that came up. This time I have more options when I am making this decision. I know Duchess is a great service dog and I think the right place she won't have so many complaints about things that are untrue. I know I have a feeling those complaints were more about that the person was generally unhappy with their job and so they just wanted to have some one to complain to.

I know I never planned on going through a temporary agency but it might actually help me make contacts and to network to find other jobs. I know I love my first assignment but I know I can always apply to an opening with this company next year. I am hoping to do some more temporary jobs because it gives me other ideas of where I can work at that I might have not previously considered. I worked at a hospice organization and I found it so rewarding. I know I wish the job was a permanent one because the company was wonderful from what I saw and heard from other inside and out of the organization. I do my homework about the companies before I start to have an idea of what they are going to expect and what I might be doing as well.