Diabetes Blog Week Topic for Today!!
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May is Mental Health Month so now seems like a great time to explore the emotional side of living with, or caring for someone with, diabetes. What things can make dealing with diabetes an emotional issue for you and / or your loved one, and how do you cope? (Thanks go out to Scott of Strangely Diabetic for coordinating this topic.)
I like to feel like as a blogger that I am very up front most of the time about what is going on in my Diabetic life in a great deal of ways but honestly I have not been the past six or seven months. I know I mentioned back in the beginning that I was dealing with my Depression and that I had talked with my Dr. and had decided to go back on anti-depressants which I am in no way recommending please speak to your physicians for the correct actions or recommendations for your case or familys cases. I am not a fan in fact has been my goal the past several years my goal to stay away from them but this time I could not seem to pull my self out of the black hole of depression.
So I had to make myself cave in and go back on them for a year is the agreed amount of time that my Dr. and I set up to treat my depression. I have dealt with depression I think for a great deal of time with my Diabetes but I had my first official treatment for depression after my graduation but I know I had been depressed for around a year before it really before very obvious to my family. I did not know I was depressed and I know it can really sneak up on me like this current time I really had no idea it was me being depressed until some one said something to me and it clicked. It was not referring to me but it seemed to bring me to the realization I need help.
I know I have withdrawn from tweeting, DSMA and other Diabetic activities in the past six months even with treatment. I am working on some other changes in my life to help me get back on track normally I rebound from my depression pretty quickly but there has been a great deal of stressful changes at work, home and life in general so this time it is taking me longer. Thank you for the people who still take time to read my blog even when it might have a more pessimistic views because I have been depressed. Thank you for understanding this is where I am at.
I feel like a complete failure because I had not commented earlier about where I was at with my Depression because as a good blogger I feel I should be able to tell you all where I am at. I am sorry for failing to share with you the whole pictures which is important. Mental heath is a part of Diabetes and in order to manage your diabetes you need to be managing your Depression as well. I know I am not afraid to talk about my Depression but it can be daunting in general.
What I am currently doing to help pull myself out of my rut is doing things that I used to enjoy. I am trying to get back into exercising because my Rheumatoid Arthritis flare-up has calmed down. I am also trying to give myself downtime and try to do things that will make my life better. Normally this tends to help me get back to where I need to be. It is not easy when you have a high stress job, overtime, Dr.'s appointments and other stressful issues like a service dog with an injury all can make things more difficult. I am getting their and I am sure pretty soon I will feeling more like myself again. Also working on some long term fixes which should help reduce the depression.
Click for the What Brings Me Down - Wednesday 5/14 Link List.
May is Mental Health Month so now seems like a great time to explore the emotional side of living with, or caring for someone with, diabetes. What things can make dealing with diabetes an emotional issue for you and / or your loved one, and how do you cope? (Thanks go out to Scott of Strangely Diabetic for coordinating this topic.)
I like to feel like as a blogger that I am very up front most of the time about what is going on in my Diabetic life in a great deal of ways but honestly I have not been the past six or seven months. I know I mentioned back in the beginning that I was dealing with my Depression and that I had talked with my Dr. and had decided to go back on anti-depressants which I am in no way recommending please speak to your physicians for the correct actions or recommendations for your case or familys cases. I am not a fan in fact has been my goal the past several years my goal to stay away from them but this time I could not seem to pull my self out of the black hole of depression.
So I had to make myself cave in and go back on them for a year is the agreed amount of time that my Dr. and I set up to treat my depression. I have dealt with depression I think for a great deal of time with my Diabetes but I had my first official treatment for depression after my graduation but I know I had been depressed for around a year before it really before very obvious to my family. I did not know I was depressed and I know it can really sneak up on me like this current time I really had no idea it was me being depressed until some one said something to me and it clicked. It was not referring to me but it seemed to bring me to the realization I need help.
I know I have withdrawn from tweeting, DSMA and other Diabetic activities in the past six months even with treatment. I am working on some other changes in my life to help me get back on track normally I rebound from my depression pretty quickly but there has been a great deal of stressful changes at work, home and life in general so this time it is taking me longer. Thank you for the people who still take time to read my blog even when it might have a more pessimistic views because I have been depressed. Thank you for understanding this is where I am at.
I feel like a complete failure because I had not commented earlier about where I was at with my Depression because as a good blogger I feel I should be able to tell you all where I am at. I am sorry for failing to share with you the whole pictures which is important. Mental heath is a part of Diabetes and in order to manage your diabetes you need to be managing your Depression as well. I know I am not afraid to talk about my Depression but it can be daunting in general.
What I am currently doing to help pull myself out of my rut is doing things that I used to enjoy. I am trying to get back into exercising because my Rheumatoid Arthritis flare-up has calmed down. I am also trying to give myself downtime and try to do things that will make my life better. Normally this tends to help me get back to where I need to be. It is not easy when you have a high stress job, overtime, Dr.'s appointments and other stressful issues like a service dog with an injury all can make things more difficult. I am getting their and I am sure pretty soon I will feeling more like myself again. Also working on some long term fixes which should help reduce the depression.
Thanks for your brave post. A "good" blogger doesn't have to tell all things all the time. It's great that you are doing the things you need to and you know the #DOC will be here for you whenever you are ready.
ReplyDeleteThank you Lesley! I have high expectations of myself as a blogger but at times it is not easy as other times. Thanks for the encouragement. It is appreciated.
DeleteFor some people anti depressants are like insulin. If your body is chemically imbalanced it doesn't make you a failure for being on them! Some people can wean themselves off, but some people always need to take them and that's just part of their chemistry. Don't feel bad that you're on them!
ReplyDeleteI have issues when I take them normally. I have found if I can avoid them I tend to not have issues in the long term. So if I can avoid them I tend to do better overall. I am always looking for ways besides drugs if at all possible.
DeleteAs both a blogger and someone with depression, I can say that I relate to you. I can also tell you it's okay to keep some things to yourself. If you need time for you, it's okay. Your readers will wait, and they'll be super happy when you start writing again. You've beaten depression into submission before, and you'll do it again! Thank you for sharing!
ReplyDeleteThanks Courtney. It really takes the enthusiasm for writing away when your depressed I really struggled with the ability to even come up with blog ideas. I am getting there just taking longer than I like. Nice to know you can relate.
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