I have thinking a lot recently about my proliferative diabetic retinopathy it is hard to believe I have been dealing with it over a year now. I have to say it was a very scary experience having a hemorrhage in my eye and not really knowing what was going to happen. I know my eyes have done quite well in fact my left eye is really showing no signs of retinopathy but I have also kept my A1c in check as well. I have been under 6.2 the whole time which is great. I also have 20/20 in my left which is wonderful. So I know you can deal with retinopathy and still come out okay with a lot of work. I have to say that I am still pleased with the fact that I have had a couple of weeks were my vision was completely clear over the past year which is wonderful. I know that even with these periods of time I still would love to have my eye as stable as possible that is why I am going to go forward with surgery. The surgery will be an incision into the retina to remove the gel between the lenses which will remove any dried blood but will also allow them to laser certain problem areas more efficiently which will equal more stability for my eye hopefully. I know the laser procedures done will also cause scar tissue but the surgery on my eye will also address that as well. So even though surgery is not fun it will also have better benefits in the long run. It has not been a fun process from firing my first Retina Specialist to enduring injections in my eye to laser procedures and many appointments. It has been quite the journey but I have to say that it has been manageable. I am happy that I have been able to keep things as normal as possible and get to the point where I am comfortable where I am at and that yes I was able to maintain my sanity through it all. Thank you for all the support during this time as well. I know sharing my experience has been interesting but at the end of the day I hope I have helped others as well. I am a big supporter of sharing my journey through complications and sharing where I am with them. I know I found that many do not share this because of fear or because it makes them feel vulnerable but I have found it really makes me stronger and better able to deal with what is in front of me.