I have been struggling after my recent low. Not because of what happened but because of the negative song and dance from the Dr. at the hospital. I know I was not ready to share this until now. I know normally when I go in they advise me to make adjustments and see my Endocrinologist to follow up which I have done. This Dr. told me that the low should have not happened and I need to work on this issue. I told the Dr. I have Hypoglycemia Unawareness and I told him a great deal of patients with this have increased lows normally. I know from a great deal of people I have meet with Hypoglycemia Unawareness it is like some one turned on a water hose and you can't turn it off. I know I work very hard to keep myself safe but this is an issue of several factors increasing the odds of having a bad low. I know I was just upset at his response of not commenting after I explained my medical history. I know the Dr. seems to think that all Diabetics can avoid lows and it is easy to control. I know mine has never been easy even as a child so why would it be easy now.
The Dr. kept insisting that I need to figure out a way to avoid this at all costs and that I was basically wasting his time. I know I am not perfect but it was insulting on all levels that he treated me so badly when I do the best I can. I am always trying to do the best I can. The Dr. did not see me during the worst part of my Hypoglycemia Unawareness which was the beginning and things were extremely scary. I know they thought this was a bad low but it was not. I know I did my best to explain that my condition has involved seizures since I was little in fact a month after diagnosis was my first. So once I explained that my Diabetes has always been difficult the Dr. finally started to lay off your a bad Diabetic routine. I know I don't need to be told I was lucky that people were around or that I need to be more careful. I know the risks involved with insulin after my 34 years of experience.
I know I don't need a guilt trip because I always feel incredibly guilty, ashamed and upset at the time. I don't need a person who has never been a Diabetic and spewing information you read in medical school when it is not always correct. Diabetes is and will always be challenging but I don't need physicians making it more difficult for me to deal with. I know I wish I could avoid them completely but this year I have done better than last year and the year before. I have been seizure free over a year and half. I think I am doing better. I know my friends all wish they had known what to do because we would have avoided this whole situation. Advocating for one self after low was incredibly difficult but was handled pretty well by me because after the low I really cranky and tired. I have attached an article from Insulin Nation on another Diabetics shaming experience by an EMT.
http://insulinnation.com/treatment2/the-ambulance-of-shame/
The Dr. kept insisting that I need to figure out a way to avoid this at all costs and that I was basically wasting his time. I know I am not perfect but it was insulting on all levels that he treated me so badly when I do the best I can. I am always trying to do the best I can. The Dr. did not see me during the worst part of my Hypoglycemia Unawareness which was the beginning and things were extremely scary. I know they thought this was a bad low but it was not. I know I did my best to explain that my condition has involved seizures since I was little in fact a month after diagnosis was my first. So once I explained that my Diabetes has always been difficult the Dr. finally started to lay off your a bad Diabetic routine. I know I don't need to be told I was lucky that people were around or that I need to be more careful. I know the risks involved with insulin after my 34 years of experience.
I know I don't need a guilt trip because I always feel incredibly guilty, ashamed and upset at the time. I don't need a person who has never been a Diabetic and spewing information you read in medical school when it is not always correct. Diabetes is and will always be challenging but I don't need physicians making it more difficult for me to deal with. I know I wish I could avoid them completely but this year I have done better than last year and the year before. I have been seizure free over a year and half. I think I am doing better. I know my friends all wish they had known what to do because we would have avoided this whole situation. Advocating for one self after low was incredibly difficult but was handled pretty well by me because after the low I really cranky and tired. I have attached an article from Insulin Nation on another Diabetics shaming experience by an EMT.
http://insulinnation.com/treatment2/the-ambulance-of-shame/
Good job Tarra realizing there are mean, know-it-all, even when they don't humans all over the world and some happen to be doctors! ... educating the public one ass-hat at a time....
ReplyDeleteI have run into my share over the past 34 years. I just have not had it happen in quite a while. Most of the time they are just concerned. I think in general they have no idea how to handle a person who can't feel lows. So they just blame the patient it is always easier than admitting they don't know.
Delete