I have been thinking a great deal about what I miss. I really miss the ability to feel my own lows. I know it seems the longer I have Hypoglycemia Unawareness the more it changes. At first when it started I could not feel lows but could feels highs but now I can't feel either. In fact a low for me these days I have no fast heart beat, I rarely ever sweat, I don't shake, I don't get hungry, I don't get grumpy, I don't get moody in general. One really scary part is that when I see a 17 on my test kit in my mind I am not at all panicked which is scary but I think that also relates back to not having the fast heart beat and shaking which I know always spurred me into action. It is shocking to me that everyone else is panicking but I am so calm about it all. I also these days when I am high I feel a little bit like I am off similar to a low which is strange. I tend to feel high at times when I am low like someone short circuited my system. The longer I have Unawareness the more difficult it seems to get.
What I am low this is what I get at times I feel nothing at all in fact will be in the middle of something and Duchess alerts. I am will be astonished at how there was not signs of being low. Other times I might get a little foggy and have a little trouble concentrating. The fogginess tends to creep up on me and once foggy things tend to go down hill quickly. I know Duchess tends to be able to bring me out of my fogginess when necessary which is good. She tends to make it clear that I need to do something when low I can forget I need to do something quickly at times. I know once or twice a year I might get a slight shaking but it scares the crap out of me because it happens so infrequently. I usually don't get the fast heart beat when low at all in the past 6 years. I find it interesting how much we rely on the ability to know when things are dangerous when low and how quickly we should react to the situation.
What I am low this is what I get at times I feel nothing at all in fact will be in the middle of something and Duchess alerts. I am will be astonished at how there was not signs of being low. Other times I might get a little foggy and have a little trouble concentrating. The fogginess tends to creep up on me and once foggy things tend to go down hill quickly. I know Duchess tends to be able to bring me out of my fogginess when necessary which is good. She tends to make it clear that I need to do something when low I can forget I need to do something quickly at times. I know once or twice a year I might get a slight shaking but it scares the crap out of me because it happens so infrequently. I usually don't get the fast heart beat when low at all in the past 6 years. I find it interesting how much we rely on the ability to know when things are dangerous when low and how quickly we should react to the situation.
...you've done a nice job describing the loss of blood sugar change abilities as we become more "broken".... makes me ask almost daily "how would I deal with this without Lily?"
ReplyDeletethen I think of those still "lucky" enough to still suffer the panic, sweating, shakes ... (the adrenaline the body produces in effort to save the body) kicking in....and am jealous
I am with you on being jealous of those who can feel lows. I know we both are so lucky to have have our DAD's.
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